7 days

7 days.

last night was absolutely lame.
actually...i guess really the whole weekend? i dunno.
Friday i thought my water broke.
THOUGHT.
i was gross feeling. and yeah.
so i waited for some horrible feeling contractions to come.
and waited.
and waited.
and Saturday came.
and i waited.
and waited.

and then i did the un-thinkable for ANY AND EVERYpregnant lady.



I Googled my symptoms.



the exact search was "how can i REALLY tell if my water is broken"
and then "what does your water breaking feel like"
and then of course "can my DR tell if I've broken my water?"


well all of the searches led me to believe that yes. i had.
slow trickle. possibly not your "water" but amniotic fluid.....because they're different? i dunno i didn't understand it.
and that if you wait TOO long you and your baby could get some hella gross infections.



so of course, me being all alone in my apartment with the email from BabyCenter and TheBump telling me that I was in fact 39 weeks that day, i freaked the eff out.



I called the on-call dr, because i only have ridiculous questions after business hours, and she said that really no one would be sure unless we went in.


well, ya know. i freaked out. called the hubs at work. and freaked out some more.
packed up the bags for the hospital--which if you MUST know, i feel like i have WAY too many--
and waited to go see what was up.


i was pretty calm.
Hubsy wasn't, but he was more excited than nervous. it was REALLY REALLY cute, i might add.


and we got there.


put on my ugly hospital gown.
answered all my questions

[ps. apparently caffeine usage is the same as illicit drugs, and i got WORSE stares and snickers when i told her I had eaten an Arby's roast beef like 4 hours before that]

and then basically was told "No you crazy woman. We don't know what you felt, but it wasn't your water breaking. Go Home"

and that was that.
mine, and my Husbands hopes were crushed a little.
[not to mention my Sister In Laws who were about as excited as I was]


so the positives I'm trying to take away from this:

me and Jaxon are okay. and that's REALLY what matters mostest.

the Triage now won't be as scary to go to when I finally [eventually] do have this baby.

i got a really awesome Burger King slushie last night thanks to my lovely Husband.

I found out that you can donate your cord blood....or is it really Jaxon's cord blood? either, way i can give it to the Cord Blood Bank to help people, which is a good thing, since i wanted to do that but the information i was given [by the Cord Blood People] was that it was going to cost ME money to do a good deed....and i don't' have an extra 2,000 just sitting for a donation like that. ....so that's cool.

also i found out that when you mention your baby MIGHT be making an appearance to the world, people get really excited and kill your phones battery.....so, I'll DEFINITELY need my phone charger at the hospital, if there was ever a question of if I would really need it or not.



so. still on baby watch.
still no baby.
still waiting.
still over this.

I WANT TO SEE THIS LITTLE GUY ALREADY!!!