6 days?

baby dr. visit today.
NST picture with Apple Juice...YUMMM
so obviously
mini contractions.
real contractions.
everything was looking good.
but then?
my cervix is sideways????
and what does that mean you ask?
well. i don't know
I'm told it happens.
and that it just means you can't tell certain information about it....

and then we talked about the " I " word.



induction.


and basically if 5 days after my due date little Baby D isn't here yet....
then...
induced I will be.

ugh.
i don't want that even a little bit.
I'm so upset about it.
I've cried like twice.
i feel like a huuuuuuge whiner about this whole end of the pregnancy.....

so today MIGHT be 6 days to the due date...
but MIGHT not be 6 days till my son is born.
might be more like 11...or 10.

so i thought it was a low number...
and now it became a big double digit again
=(