8 days

today i tried to get all pretty and happy.

last night was hard.

some how the whole idea of going OVER my due date NEVER occurred to me.

i mean, i know most first time pregnant ladies have over-due babies. i do know that.

but most first time pregnant ladies aren't 5'0'' and have little to no torso...

i would have just bet my whole life savings on this little guy being over it already and high-tailing it outta there WAYYY in advance.

and for some reason...i REALLLLY thought it would happen these past two days.

or maybe i just REALLY WANTED them to happen?

either way.

still pregnant.

i haven't really contemplated the whole "over-due" thing yet...

mostly because, well i cry every time i think about how he's not out yet.

yeah i'm not going to front here ladies and gents...

i'm kinda a walking hot emotional mess right now.

i'm tired, and excited, and nervous, and disappointed, and over the whole experience.

AND WHAT IS UP WITH PAST NEW MOMS TELLING ME TO SLEEP!?!?!

like they all just MAGICALLY forgot that sleeping is like the hardest thing to do ever right now.

either my leg is cramping, or falling asleep. i'm either too cold or literally sweating everywhere.

i can't just move wherever i want to because it takes so much effort now.

not to mention really awesome braxton hicks/mini contractions/im not even sure what the hell they are but they're really uncomfortable-ness that is happening in my.....well actually basically everywhere.

i know i'm being uber whiney.

i'm sorry.

but this isn't going to be a fun week.

the due date is approaching...

and so is 95+ degree weather.

every. day. this. week.

fun huh??

=(